I wrote this last March, but never posted it. It turned up today and reading it made me laugh, so maybe you’ll get a laugh out of it too.
“Well Jane, it just goes to show ya.”
It’s still early in the day, too soon to tell really, but already I feel different.
I’m not in the mood to be nostalgic, contemplative, or even happy. Today is my fifty-first birthday. It’s a day that will pretty much go unnoticed.
I lift my mug and savor a sip of coffee. As I drink, I let go a sigh. The steam fogs my glasses for a moment. The coffee is strong. It’s stronger than I feel this morning. I take in a long drag from my cigarette and send a plume of smoke into the air. It’s there for me now, ready to be sucked in and drawn out again with every breath. These are two habits that I should have given up long ago.
“It’s always something.”
Life can be hard, but I have no cause to complain. My problems are neither unique nor unworkable and I know that things could be worse. Things can always be much worse. I’ve just been preoccupied lately with my worries.
“If it’s not one thing, it’s another.”
I poke my fingers through the blinds and peek out onto a cloudy day. I’ve read that the weather isn’t supposed to affect our moods, but it does. If the sun were to come out I know that I would feel much better.
The house is silent as everyone else sleeps. The only sounds that I hear are the hum of my aging computer and the click of the keyboard as I type. Oh, and the sighs.
My legs ache, my fingers feel crampy, I feel a cold coming on, and I still have the crick in my neck that I woke up with. As Roseanne Roseannadanna would say:
“I sound like a real attractive guy!”
I laughed at myself as I wrote that last line. Laughing always makes me feel better.
Happy birthday to me.
I’ll leave it to Roseanne to say the rest.
“It’s always something.”
“If it’s not one thing, it’s another.”
“Either you smoke or you have a sweat ball hanging from your nose.
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Enjoy this clip of the late Gilda Radner as Roseanne Roseannadanna on Saturday Night Live, courtesy of Hulu.
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